Emociju bagāža

(English is below)

Ir pagājusi gandrīz nedēļa kopš saņēmu lieliskos jaunumus,ka esmu uzņemta organizācijā Youth For Christ.

Laiks padalīties ar savām emocijām :)

Līdz prombraukšanai ir atlikušas pilnas 4 dienas.Ieraugot šo ciparu nav tās sajūtas,ka tik pavisam drīz es atstāšu Latviju,visus tuviniekus,draugus un pēc nepilnas nedēļās būšu savās jaunajās mājas Anglijā uz 11 mēnešiem.Laiks aiz loga mani nemaz neiepriecina,bet smejoties saku:"Tas mani norūdīs Anglijas gadalaikam!"

Emocijas šobrīd ir dažādas.

Šķiet,ka katru dienu jūtos savādāk.Te sajūsma un prieks.Te bažas un raizes,lai gan tās jau neatstājas ne mirkli.Tad skumjas.Bailes.Atkal saviļņojums liels.

Tādai emociju bagāžai laikam līdz šim tik īsā laikā neesmu gājusi cauri.

Paveroties apkārt uz istabu var manīt,ka kāds dodas garā izbraucienā.Vakardien  ļoti tuvs cilvēks mani nosvētīja ar somām,kuras ņemšu līdz un kurās pamazām sāku likt iekšā visu nepieciešamo..brīžiem grūti saprast,ko ņemt un ko atstāt.Visvairāk man laikam šobrīd ir iepakoti lietusmēteļi :D

Krāmējoties attausa atmiņā,ka vienmēr esmu domājusi,ka nekad neatstāšu Latviju,savas mājas ilgāk kā uz mēnesi,bet redz kā ir - ar Dievu nekad neko nevar zināt :) Viņš mēdz mainīt mūsu plānus!

Daudz lietu vēl jānokārto.Daudz cilvēku jāsatiek.Daudz atvadu,asaru jau ir bijušas.Un ir vien man jāsaka,ka nepatik man atvadīties,bet tādos brīžos tu ļoti sāc novērtēt un apzināties,cik Dievs ļoti tevi ir svētijis :)

Gribu pateikt paldies visiem!Paldies,ka esat ar mani šajā piedzīvojumā.Paldies par katru iedrošinošo vārdu,ko esmu saņēmusi, par katru smaidu, jaukajiem vārdiem. Tas mani ļoti iepriecina un liek iet uz priekšu :)

Paldies katram,kurš mani jau ir atbalstījis ar savām finansēm un bijis gatavs dot,lai palīdzētu!Es tik ļoti to novērtēju.Paldies katram,kas vēl dos!Bez Jums es to neizdarītu!Bet pats galvenais-bez Viņa es to neizdarītu!

Vēljoprojām ir nepieciešams liels brīnums un cilvēku finansiālais atbalsts!Tāpēc,ja tev ir uz sirds mani atbalstīt,es priecāšos ļoti :) Droši raksti man!Novērtēju katru Tavu devumu-manās acīs jebkas ir daudz!

Tad uz nākamo tikšanos..

Esiet svētīti,

Laura

/Almost a week has past since I received wonderful news that I'm accepted in organization Youth For

Christ.

It's time to share with my emotions. :)

There are 4 full days left until I leave. When I look at it, I do not have a feeling that very soon I'll

leave Latvia, all my relatives, friends and that after one week I'll be in my new home - England for 11

months. Looking outside the window, the weather is not very pleasant, but I'm ironically saying to my

self that this is gonna toughen me for English weather.

I have different emotions at this moment. It seems that every day I'm feeling differently. It's excitement

and joy in one moment, and then worries and anxiety, although it seems that they don't leave me at

all. At another moment I'm sad, then scared and then excited again. I haven't been through so many

emotions in such a short time ever.

When I looked at my room, it's kind of visible that someone is going somewhere. Yesterday a close

person gave me suitcases that I'll take with me and I'm starting to pack them. . it's hard to

understand what to take, what to leave. At this moment I have many rain coats with me :D

As I was packing I remember that I have always thought that I'm not gonna leave Latvia for more than

one month, but it turns out to be the opposite - there are always surprises with God. :) He can change

our plans!

There are so many things that need to be done, many people to meet.

There have been many goodbyes and tears and I have to say that I do not like to say goodbyes, but in

these moments you start to realize how God much has blessed you. :)

I want to say big thank you to everyone! Thank you that you are with me in this adventure. Thank you

for every encouraging word that I have received, for every smile and nice words. It gives me great joy

and let me move forward. :)

Thanks to everyone who has supported me financially and have been ready to help by giving. I really

appreciate this. Thanks to everyone, who will give! I wouldn't be able to do that with without you! But

most importantly - I wouldn't been able to do it without HIM!

I still need big miracle and people's financial support. So if it's on your heart to support me, I'll be

happy. :) Please write me. I appreciate any contributions - anything in my eyes is a lot!

Till next time...

Be blessed!

Laura